May 8, 2013 Leave a comment
There have been many moments (most of them in the last year) that I can classify as anti-climactic. When I got the email that said I had matched for internship and suddenly 8 months of anxiety was over and I no idea what I was supposed to do. The last 5 minutes of my last class ever. The 2012 apocalypse. I could go on and on.
My written dissertation passed? My chair signed off on it? Like, just like that. I got his feedback on my draft. We set up a meeting. He asked what I needed and we discussed for a few and set up an oral defense date. Then he signed the official form that I passed.
I don’t know what I was expecting. Tequila? Confetti? A parade of sharply dressed Cillian Murphies and Benedict Cumberbatches? Something. I came home and told my boyfriend and he was like “cool.”
3 years. Countless data collection trips. 1000’s of trees dead from printing shit. Migraines. Carpel tunnel. Missed drinking excursions? All just for a little signature. 😦
Maybe after my oral defense I will get that parade. (If anyone is wondering what I want for a defense gift, hint!)
I guess I’ll take this moment to be an optimist (feels weird…) and focus on this simple fact: I am done with classes. 21 years of education and I am finally out of that shit! I get to have a life! I get to play video games and read Bradbury at the beach with my hound! I get to spend time with boyfriend (who is super duper excited by all of this)! I get to work one job 40 hours a week and then come home to my home and to boyfriend and to my pup! I don’t have to write papers or stupid presentations or assignments or reads shitty articles about things I could care less about when the journals I pay for sit unopened due to lack of time to read. I stocked up on books for the summer! I bought new running shoes! It will be magical!!!
All of this, of course, after I defend my diss and get my fucking celebration! (I’m at least getting myself a goddamn cake.)